Biblical themes in The Greatest Showman songs?

The title may make you cringe. I promise I'm not one of those over-analyzing-everything-people (k, maybe sometimes), but it's just that this past week I've been listening to songs of 'The Greatest Showman' (let's be real, when am I not) and, well, I couldn't help but think 'wow, change a few words and this could totally be a song about me and God.' Like, I was sitting in the train. The sun was pouring inside from the windows on my face. I was listening to 'From Now On' and as I was listening to the words suddenly my heart was worshiping my Creator. Because I was listening to those songs from another place than the songwriters wrote it from.

I know these songs weren't made to worship God (in other words they aren't 'Christian songs') buuut you know, there are some themes that just scream 'Gospel' and 'Jesus' and 'New Life' to me. Just, when I listen to the lyrics and think about how I interpret some of the lyrics in a spiritual way, my goosebumps come. Wow. These songs are AMAZING. 

Anyway, this post is kind of pointless and maybe might sound weird but yeah I wanted to share the lyrics that can be interpreted in Christian-y ways. :-P Cause I think it's cool.


Mountains and valleys, and all that will come in between
Desert and ocean 
You pulled me in and together we're lost in a dream 
Always in motion 
So I risk it all just to be with you 
And I risk it all for this life we choose

I LOVE the song Tightrope. And yes I generally listen to it as the beautiful love romance song it is. But this part reminds me of the certain 'risk' we have in our lives as Christ followers. It is God that pulled me into this life and I risk it all for this life I choose. (You see?)

This is Me

I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I'm meant to be, this is me. 
I won't let them break me down to dust 
I know that there's a place for us 
For we are glorious
I'm not scared to be seen 
I make no apologies, this is me

Yessssss. THIS IS HOW CONFIDENT WE SHOULD BE IN OUR FAITH. We are more than Conquerors in Christ. We are bruised BUT we are made clean. We are who we are meant to be. We are glorious in Him. There is a place for us. We should never make any apologies for being followers of Jesus. This is who we are!

Never Enough

All the shine of a thousand spotlights
All the stars we steal from the night sky 
Will never be enough 
Never be enough 
Towers of gold are still too little 
These hands could hold the world but it'll 
Never be enough 
Never be enough

Nothing this world offers us will ever be enough. Never never never. Towers of gold will never satisfy. Even the beauty of the stars in the night-sky. Or the shine of a thousand spotlights. Or the whole wide world. If we don't have God, we will never be satisfied. It will never be enough without Him.

Come Alive

I see it in your eyes 
You believe that lie 
That you need to hide your face 
Afraid to step outside 
So you lock the door 
But don't you stay that way 
No more living in those shadows 
You and me, we know how that goes' 
Cause once you see it, oh you'll never, never be the same 
We will be the light that's turning 
Bottle up but keep on shining 
You can prove there's more to you 
You cannot be afraid
To anyone who's bursting with a dream
Come one!Come all!You hearThe call
To anyone who's searching for a way to break free
Break free! Break free! 
When the world becomes a fantasy 
And you're more than you could ever be' 
Cause you're dreaming with your eyes wide open 
And we know we can't be go back again 
To the world that we were living in' 
Cause we're dreaming with our eyes wide open

Come Alive is amazing ahh. And these lyrics. I mean, need I say more as to why I think it screams out 'NEW LIFE'?!?  'Cause once you see it, oh you'll never, never be the same' and 'We'll be the light that's shining' and 'Believing the lie that you need to lock the door and hide your face.' Accepting Jesus into your life is all about breaking free and hearing the call and never going back again to the world that we were living in. JUST YES YES THE IMAGERY I FIND. :-D

From Now On

Wait for this one, this one is my favourite.

For years and years 
I chased their cheers 
The crazy speed of always needing more 
But when I stop 
And see you here 
I remember who all this was for

THAT. The crazy speed of always needing more. STOPPING. and seeing God. And remembering who we're living for. That's what I hear when I listen to that.

It starts tonight 
And let this promise in me start 
Like an anthem in my heart 
From now on 
From now on 
From now on

Also that.

And we will come back home 
And we will come back home 
Home again! 
And we will come back home 
And we will come back home 
Home, again!
We will come back home. (The way they sing it man. When they start singing in acapella and it becomes all Gospel-choir-y. AHHHHH.) (Also when it's just piano and the guitar-y instrument in the beginning, it sounds like a Rend Collective song, don't you think?)

Random Naomi thoughts have ended. What do you say? What are your thoughts?

Post number #504

Yesterday I procrastinated for ages reading my 'old' journals. (But 'old' I mean the-past-two-years-old. Older than that is way too depressing to read.) The funny thing was, I was inspired by my own writing. I love getting inspired by my own writing. Sometimes I was like 'OH YEAH THIS IS MY FEELING EXACTLY' (like of course. it's me writing) and sometimes it was like 'wowww, God has helped me in this so much' and sometimes it was like 'dude girl no. Stop it.' and sometimes it was like 'wow, nothing has changed, I wish more had changed since then and now.'

So basically this is me writing to myself, with a plea to myself. NAOMI. WRITE MORE. JOURNAL MORE. Because reading it back is good. Because writing thoughts and feelings down is therapeutic. And because writing down makes you mature in thoughts. And because you know that writing is your way to feel close to Jesus. So do it! Please. I know you're busy. I know it's more relaxing to watch documentaries about people designing tiny houses (so. much. fun. to. watch. LOL.) and I know that writing sometimes feels like a chore. BUT. GET BACK INTO DOING IT. Please. Thx.

(I really need and want to get back to journalling consistently.) (And I also want to reread the Bible.) (Let's do it, Naomi.)

PS: Some random recommendations because why not. :-D

THE BIBLE PROJECT PODCAST: Ahh, I'm listening to one right now (it's a 'justice'-themed Q & R and they're so good at answering all these big questions. And they are so nice. It's so nice to hear kind people talk haha.) Basically these guys always rock it. They always give me a new perspective on the Bible and themes and books. I haven't listened to that many so far, but the ones I've listened to have been very good.

"Maybe this isn't your creative highpoint (and that's okay)" by Amy --- this blog post was just what I wanted + needed to hear.

Katie Gregoire's wedding gown 😍 (I can't wait for the wedding video.)

New blog look, Downton Abbey videos and not much else.

1. Olivia at Meanwhile, in Rivendell just redid her blog for spring, and although a sweep of coldness and snow is passing my country at the moment (yup, it's cold and white outside), I have shamelessly let myself be inspired by her and bam, I spent yesterday evening doing and re-tweaking my blog till I was happy with it. And yes, that's a picture of me in the sidebar. Now you know. (I'm curious though, do I look like you thought I looked like?)

2. I have a terrible cold. Since December. Ew.

3. Right now Spotify is playing me a good old Carrie Underwood playlist. (Right now it's 'Church Bells' and I love that song.)

4. My awesome sister has been making hilarious Downton Abbey compilation videos and she's put some on youtube. I have to share them. They are gold. The 'times are changing' one makes me laugh so much because it's honestly quite ridiculous how many times those characters go on and on about how 'times are changing.' (Also, we make fun of Robert Crawley the whole time, about how he pities himself so much. Man up.)


5. Not much else.

💓 LOVE 💓

You know there are some Bible verses everyone knows about? Like 1 Corinthians 13 and Psalm 23 and the last verses of Romans 8 and the "God so loved the world" verse in John. And they are amazing. Buuuut there are SO many hidden gems it's literally insane. Don't you have that sometimes, when you're reading and suddenly you come across this verse that makes you like WOAHhhhhhH how have I never seen this one on Pinterest before??!?! 😍

I had that moment when I 'found' the one I put on my header. And I had such a moment just then.

This is what I found:

Ephesians 3:17-19And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Kabammmm GOD. Woww. You are stunning.

Love so wide and long
And high and deep
It surpasses knowledge

K I don't know about you but yes I want this love and I want power to grasp it.

Some filtered pictures, a recording of me singing, and a Dutch proverb on the wall.

No, I am not starting a Youtube channel, I have had to make so many videos for my course lately. We get the weirdest, most creative assignments. I filmed myself walking cross-legged in front of graffiti the other day. This is a training course to become a primary teacher, might I add. I am not studying the art of clown-making. (I hope my teachers don't read this. If they do, well, they know I am odd and that I don't particularly mind odd assignments. But I stand my case. I do get odd assignments. But that's ok. Even though I sometimes don't see the point.) *smiles sweetly*

And yes, this video I filmed on the ground in the bathroom, because the acoustics are the best there. I had to film myself singing a song. I went for 'Sixteen going on Seventeen.' Hey, should I post the recording here? Should I? But, but, Naomi, no! I am self conscious of my recorded voice... But then, I should do something now and then that I am uncomfortable doing, right? So here... I guess.

(Hello future Naomi, who will probably delete this recording.)

My messy but cosy corner. I may be slightly addicted with polaroid pictures.

Because blurry pictures at a museum are so hashtag retro and cool and post-worthy, amirite. (Gosh, spotify ads. Hush.) (Sorry, I am listening to a spotify playlist and the amount of times it tells me to listen to the ad so I can have the next 30 minutes ad-free is recklessly tiring.) (Here I am writing in brackets again.) (I just side-track in my thoughts so much and then it feels kinda unfair to my main thought to not put it in brackets, you know?) (You probably don't.) (NAOMI GO ON TO THE NEXT PICTURE. SMH.)

(Oh I just found out that 'smh' means 'shaking my head.' For so long I thought it was some kind of way to write out a sigh. SMH sounds like a sigh, right?)

Me and my darling friend Julia had a joint birthday party a week ago, and this was the cake 'we' (read: she) made. We put the 18 candle on it because Julia is 18 and it's pretty. (Although *I* am 19. *just saying*) We played games, ate tortilla, sang songs from The Greatest Showman till those who didn't know the songs got annoyed (then we went on to Frozen, Wicked and Hamilton.), ate cake, laughed, played hide and seek (yes, we are 5-year-olds) and laughed. It was lovely.

The lighting at Julia's house before the guests arrived was beautiful so I took a picture. I have a phone so I might as well. Right-o?

I should write something about the sunset but what I'm thinking is 'wow, my window needs washing.'

I don't know why on a day when I was feeling depressed and sad about the world I decided to take a picture of my journal. Do not ask my weird ways of nature.

This was back in January, when we got snow! SO MUCH. Jk. Not very much. (Enough for just about every Belgian person in the news to complain though. Man alive. People complain soooo much about snow here. I'm like, dude, go live in Canada or Alaska and you will realise how pathetic this is. Once this year the news here advised the nation not to go to work because there would be a lot of traffic because of 5 centimetres of snow.)

Anyway, I like this picture. That's our garden. The blue house is the garden shed, not our house.

A bored capturing-the-sunshine-in-the-winter picture at a station while waiting for a train. The graffiti says 'ride a dragon' (in french.) I haven't ridden a dragon yet because I'm not sure it's wise to take the advice of people who put graffiti on walls. It's illegal. (Not to ride a dragon. To put graffiti on public walls.)

These pictures are interesting, right? You must be so entertained.

Translation of the Dutch proverb/saying/quote: "Nothing so annoying as a proverb on the wall."
(It rhymes in dutch.) (It's all supposed to be funny.) (I liked it. So I took a pic.)

And I finish off with a Lion-King-esque sunset because MY HEART. GOD IS AMAZING.

(PS: I hope this post wasn't too boring. ;-P)

In which I squeal over a trailer (!!!)



0:03 -- I already love this. Look at the London-esque-ness
0:09 -- Guys the costumes in this movie are going to slay, just look at that yellow silk dress. And her red lipstick. And her hair. Ahh, post WW2 costumes are my favourite. *heart eyes*
0:14 -- IT'S HIM!!!! He literally makes the best Sidney ever; he looks just like Sidney should look. (Ohhh, and that's two Dowton Abbey actors in it already!)
 0:19 -- YES. I Like The Way He Looks
0:20 -- ahhhhhh the letters ahh I love this story so stinkin much guys there's a movie :-)
0:34 -- "I'll finally have something serious to write" (Reminding me that this is a movie all about a writer and it's gonna be so good)
0:39 -- She arrives at Guernsey!! It's so beautiful.
0:42 -- Penelope Wilson! FOUR DOWNTON ACTORS (yes haha. The more there are, the more I am excited to watch this.)
0:48 -- "I have yet to meet him" *knock on the door* *Mr Adams comes in* I LOVE THESE TWO
1:07 -- "There's more to that story"... DUN DUN DUNNNNNN
1:19 -- Sybil makes the best Elizabeth. AMEN.
1:27 -- "I've seen things I never thought could happen - happen" *chills*
1:36 -- I like this couple. Just fyi.
1:45 -- He's holding a pig and they're smiling at each other #GUYS 
1:53 -- This outfit 
1:56 -- "Books do have the power to bring people together" *yesyes*
2:08 -- Enjoying a slice of potato peel pie... LOL
2:20 -- "Gosh, quite a mouthful" <<< Our thoughts exactly, but that's why we love the title. She went for it.


7 things not worth arguing about

I get it, everyone is different. We have different tastes, opinions, views, beliefs, ideas, mindsets, hobbies, likes and brains. And I get it, it's fun to talk about these. And sometimes important. 

But there are some things on which we should not bother getting heated about. Like, JUST NO. You are childish if this makes your blood cook because arguing about these kind of things is a complete, utter waste of your precious God-given time amen. Of course, it's fun now and then to talk about these things. Like I'm not saying you can't have a laugh and a good ol' fun gibber about who is handsomer, Tom or Matthew, but... don't let it be an important discussion in which you put tons of emotion and in which you try to 'convert' the other to having your opinion. (Cuz it will NOT work, with these subjects.)

So here, my fellow human beings, are ten things not worth arguing about.

1. What food is delicious and what is disgusting

Me: What's something about me that annoys you?
Emma: You don't like fruitcake
(back in the June of 2016)

Once I had a 10 minute discussion with my sister about what kind of spaghetti is better, thin spaghetti or fat spaghetti. And one I tried to convince my brother verbally that tortilla wraps with chicken is a gift from heaven to the tastebuds. Did I change their minds in the slightest? Of course not. One can't change a persons tastebuds by proclaiming words of praise about the food said tastebuds despise. You can go 'ahhh bananas is THE BEST' in the comment section, but will I go 'ahhh really? ok, totally convinced'. nope. So stop getting heated up when someone says they love tomatoes. Let them love tomatoes. (I love tomatoes.)

2. What actor/actress is handsomer

Need I say more. Again, tooootal personal preference and it does not matter. All the "what????!!?"s and "nooooo!!!"s will not change a thing. (Also if you discuss this subject a lot maybe you should stop discussing this so much. It's not exactly the most productive thing you could be doing with your time.)

3. What movie version of Pride and Prejudice is the best

Ok I sometimes enjoy a hearty P&P discussion but when it becomes arguing I'm like what the heck guys. We are literally investing energy and heated emotion into the fact that our brains do not adhere to the same level of passion about a made up story acted out by celebrities. Do you ever stop and think how pointless this is. Has someone ever converted from a P&P05 lover to a P&P95 lover through a comment war? Vice versa? No. So lets quit getting all panicky about each others differing opinions on these two movies. Wow, how old are we. :-P (It's fine to state your opinions. I love stating my opinion about the P&P movies. But I don't care a jot if yours are a polar opposite mine. And why should I care?!)

P.S. P&P95 is the best ;-)

4. What singer sings the nicest

Me: I loooove Micheal Buble
Johan: Eh no he's --
Me: What?! How can you not like Michael Buble?!
Johan: His voice is bland and boring
Johan: It's bland and boring

Some people like croaky, raspy voices. Others like it classic. Other fancy a husky whispery voice. Some just want rap and metal. Others like opera. Other fortunate people appreciate a bit of everything. (These are matters on which it is SO OK to AGREE TO DISAGREE)

5. That X looks good on the picture

Me: Ah, that's such a good picture of you
Hannah: WHAT??!!! EUGHHHHH

When someone tells you she (or he) (probably she) thinks she doesn't look good on a certain picture, YOU CANNOT ARGUE HER OUT OF THAT. You may convince her to believe that you think she looks good on the picture but she herself will not be like 'oh ok now you put it like that I look GOOD on that pic.' No use arguing, just delete the picture; or bury it in an old box. Never ever post it on instagram.

6. That it's hot or cold

Sometimes I'm freezing while my sister is in shorts. Sometimes I'm in shorts and my dad reaches to take his coat. Me saying "Come on! it's hot!" will not stop him from taking his coat.

7. That a book is good or not

Personal opinion bla bla bla. And that's ok bla bla bla. You get the point of this post. ;-P (Seriously though, younger me freaked out when a friend gave back a Lynn Austin book I found my heart and soul in with the words, 'nah, it's not my kinda book.' This is older me telling younger me that that was stupid. To care that much about whether or not another human being who God made different shared my racing love and vehement passion for a story that a human made.)

Goodbye. ✌

*leaves quick bc I actually didn't have time to write this*

Tiny Bible study

Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. So, when he heard that Lazarus was ill, he stayed two days longer in the place where he was. (John 11:5-6)

I'll rephrase:

Now Jesus loved Martha, Mary and Lazarus.
So, because He loved them He stayed two days longer in the place where He was.

I'll rephrase again:

Martha and Mary were begging Jesus to come to them because their brother was dying. Now Jesus loved them SO he stayed two days longer in the place where He was and didn't come.
Jesus 'ignored' their plea for two days because He loved them.

When we feel like God is not answering our prayer that is because He loves us. I am sure that for Martha and Mary those two days when Jesus didn't come were the two longest days of their lives. When Lazarus died they were probably overwhelmed with sorrow, questions and doubts. Why hadn't Jesus come? Why didn't He come to heal Lazarus before it was too late?

Because it wasn't too late. And that is what Jesus wanted to show.

“This illness does not lead to death. It is for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified through it.” - Jesus

So when you feel like you are waiting, waiting, waiting, without any answer from God... know that He knows and that He is waiting with you. Know that He does this just because of His love. It is for the glory of God.

(And here ends my little Bible study for the day.)

why I love being single

I have no idea why I am writing this post. Probably because I'm single and people often say being single is like 'the most worst and most terrible thing ever' while I honestly don't see anything bad about it at all. Single people. Grow up. And non-single people. GROW UP. Don't make your single friends feel like their lack of relationship status makes them 'less' than you. (Not that anyone has made me feel like that, actually, my friends-who-are-in-a-relationship are super kind about everything and actually also enjoyed being single.) (And also, I love getting to hear about friends being in relationships. I love shipping them. :-P)

I am only 19, but I've been a legal adult for over a year now and I've been a teenager for what feels like a decade and all this I have lived through without once having a guy in my life that I called 'boyfriend' rather than 'boy friend' (that space is what we call the friendzone) so I think it is fair to say that I am single. And here's why I love it and why I literally couldn't care less that I don't have a boyfriend.

1. If you can't be happy on your own, you can't be happy with a significant other
I am happy on my 'own' (says the girl who has five brothers and four sisters and a ginormous youth group of friends lol) therefore I consider that a fine mark of maturity in myself. Well done Naomi.

2. Less drama in my life
Not saying you can't have a romantic relationship without a little bit of drama... ok I am saying that you can't have a romantic relationship without a little bit of drama.

3. You can 'ship' yourself with fictional characters
I would feel bad doing this if I had a boyfriend, but I think this is fun so I am glad I can still do this. (Although normally my fictional boyfriends already have fictional girlfriends. But then I can imagine I am that fictional girlfriend. #Walterblytheandme)

4. You can make 'single jokes'
They're lame, but I love them. (Stuff like 'chocolate is my boyfriend' and 'I'm a professional third-wheeler' and 'oops sorry I spilled the milk, you know I'm single for a reason'...) Making these jokes with other single people is especially fun. 

"I don't know what I would do with a boyfriend. What do you do with them? Take them out for a walk??"
--- A friend of mine

5. More time
I guess if I ever have a boyfriend I'll be like, that's worth the investment of time, old-young-and-single-Naomi. But still. I have more time to watch blimey cow on youtube.

6. You learn to value the beauty of other relationships
Not being in a romantic relationship doesn't mean 'alone' and 'sad' and 'relationship-less'. Friendship is one of the most beautiful things there is in life. And yes you can be friends with the opposite sex. People who say you can't are my biggest pet peeve. The friendship love is amazing and words cannot describe how lucky I am to have such good friends. Also, family. Best thing ever.
(Not saying couples don't value friendship etc. But just, being single makes you focus on these other kinds of relationships more.)

7. It is easier to focus on Jesus
I know no boyfriend will ever get between me and Jesus but it's true, being single does make it easier to prioritise your relationship with God. It's why Paul is like 'guys, it's better to be single.'

8. You realise (hopefully) that it's no big deal to be single
I hope you do. Ultimately it's no big deal at all unless you make it one. I hope you are not single as in 'waiting.' Don't WAIT. LIVE. (Watch this youtube video about this subject, it's really good.)

There you go. Would I like a boyfriend? Yes. Are there times when I'm like ok, I could do with a romance right now? Yes. Am I fine without one? Yes. (Would I like pizza right now? Yes. Are there times when I'm like ok, I could do with 10 pizza's right now? Yes. Am I fine without pizza right now? Yes.) (Whoops, I did not compare pizza to a boyfriend just then, did I? If I did I promise I did not do that disrespectfully; you should know I have the highest regard for pizza.)

Do you know what I love about Christianity? (well, one of the things. :-)) It's like the only religion/belief system in the world that really celebrates singleness. The world is all about exploring your sex life as quick as possible - you're a complete failure if you haven't mastered the art of tongue kissing by the age of sixteen, etc. etc. - and in so many cultures your status goes up if you're married. But the Bible is like nope, being single is actually better cuz you can keep your focus better on Jesus - STAY SINGLE! (Not that the Bible doesn't condone relationships. duh. But it does definitely celebrate singleness. And I love that.)

Happy Valentine's day everyone! 💕
(sorry to say this, but if you're single, you're pathetic. ew.) (#sarcasm)

A small story with a Moral.

Enjoy this short story if you wish to enjoy it. This is the introduction of this post. I put it in pink to make it look like I put a lot of effort into it. Actually this introduction only took like 15 seconds to write. Now you can read the short story. Go.

Once there was a young man who thought his life was important.

"It is," said he to his girlfriend Darrell, "Life is important."

"Yes and no but more no," his girlfriend said, after swallowing down her bite of apple. (Of course. Darrell was a sophisticated girl who never had second thoughts about speaking while having nutrition located in her mouth.)

"Why on earth no?!" the boy said. "Life is nothing but important."

She thought for a moment."Well... it is only important because it's not."

"Why am I dating you?" The boy rolled his eyes. "You speak such gibberish sometimes that I sometimes find myself talking gibberish to the people around me. Last night I had a dream about a four-headed-giraffe. Probably your fancies rubbing off on me." But he smiled, because Darrell was his favourite.

"I stand my case," Darrell said.

For a moment it was quiet. Only the bluebirds, the wind and the dry leaves created sound waves that unconcsiously penetrated the eardrums of the young, budding philosophers.

"I am quite serious," Darrell repeated.

"I know. I can hear from the tone of your voice. You meant what you said. Which is why I am quiet. I cannot make it out."

"Yes," Darrell said. She popped the core of her apple into her mouth. She did not believe in wasting food.

"You say that life is only important because it's not. And that makes sense?" The boy looked at his girlfriend with a confused look on his face.

"Absolutely," she insisted. "Because a life is only a life. It is a vapour in the wind and a wave in an ocean; it is completely useless really."

"So... life is useless. Great. Way to cheer me up."

Darrell laughed. "You are the one that says you like it when people speak their mind. It's true, isn't it? Why, I am working my socks off to become a teacher so I can work my socks off even more once I get a job. That's absolutely absurd, isn't it? What's the bally point? Why, people go through lengths and lengths of drama to finally get a boyfriend or a girlfriend only to break it off after a few weeks. Quite comical. And why, one day we weep, the other day we laugh, and then we moan, and then we smile, and then we complain. We are the most hilarious creatures in existence. How pathetic!"

"No, I don't like this," The boy said sadly. "Life... life isn't... that."

Darrell sighed. "It is the single most pathetic thing there is."

Once again it was silent for a moment. Darrell broke it. "But then I didn't say life wasn't important."

The boy lifted an eyebrow. "I don't like not understanding things my girlfriend says."

"The thing is this. What if we didn't sugarcoat life but what if we found life beyond this one? Because honestly, I'm giving up on trying to make this one sound that good. It's mostly miserable."

"How can you say that?" The boy asked. "I have never seen you this negative. You are literally the most life-loving person I know. It stuns me to see you this way."

"Yet I have never been this joyful," Darrell was quick to say. "I did not say I hated this life; I do love it. But I don't love this life because of this life. This life isn't that great. End of story. It sucks. So I went on a mission to find another life. And that's the one I'm living for and that's why I love this life that would otherwise suck. The more I live this life the more I am intent on not living for it. Yet the more I am intent on not living for it the more I find myself living this life." 

"So..." said the boy, "Paradox is the key to life?"

"Not living for this life makes you live and love this life. Yes."

The boy frowned and then suddenly smiled. "Oh, I think I know what you're talking about."

"It was about time," said Darrell.

"Jesus," said the boy softly. "You're talking about Jesus."

"Yes. How did you guess?"

"Because He's the guy that said that whoever wants to save his life will lose it. And whoever loses his life will find it."

"Correct," Darrell said, her eyes shining with deep love for her Maker; such love that no poet nor artist could ever put into words, shape or picture. "He is correct."

“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it." 

(-- God aka your biggest fan; He loves you crazy much. Do this.)

3 Mini-Reviews of the 3 Movies I have seen in January

The Light Between the Oceans

Okay... so first off, I am not sure if I recommend this? On the one hand it left me with chills and in awe (and I went to amazon straightaway to order the book because I cannot get enough of this story), but on the other hand... IT IS SO MUCH. Like, the emotional turmoil this movie put me through was not okay. I went in it, knowing it was going to be dramatic and knowing that I was going to cry (and I put it on because I felt like a crying movie) (and because I'd seen the trailer so many times it was becoming pathetic), but man when I mean crying movie I didn't mean SOBBING LIKE A BABY MOVIE.

So warning: It is a very dramatic movie. Intense. Drama. Packed with it. Amen. The end.

But it's beautiful. So so so beautiful. The actors, the scenery (man, that little island with the sand dunes and the dry grass and the grey clouds and the pink, pink sunsets... it reminded me of Lucy Maud Montgomery's novel 'The Blue Castle'. Isabelle and Tom also kinda look like how I imagine Barney and Valancy, so that made it even better.), the characters (TOM. 😍 That man has a heart of gold.), the love story (Isabelle's "Well, then marry me" was epic),the storylines, the stories behind it, the music... ahh twas good dangit.

(Still not sure if I recommend it though. :-))

The Greatest Showman

(I chose this poster because I love these two together and I loved that scene. And the moon and the pink dress.)

AHHH THIS MUSICAL. (This is the greatest show!!!!) (I sung that.) (That's what happens with musicals. One listens to the soundtrack and one sprouts out lyrics randomly.) I went with not-so-high-expectations, I left singing and dancing out of the cinema. My sister and I went to watch it for my birthday, in a small cinema room with comfy chairs and a bag of sweet popcorn between us. It started. We got chills. It went on. We loved it.

Personally, I think it is lacking slightly in plot. There could have been more to the storyline? I don't know. Maybe it was me being picky. But it was definitely a very spectacular movie. The best thing was obviously, the songs. "Tightrope", for instance (*insert HEART EMOJI*), and "The Other Side" (love that scene so so much haha) and "Reach out the stars" (yeah yeah Zendaya and Zach y'all have mad skillz. That scene was amazing) and, one of the best songs in my opinion, "This is Me." Oh and that opening song and scene. When they all stamp and sing and suddenly the Amazing Hugh Jackman goes, smooth and soft as ever, "Ladies and Gents this is the moment you've waited for." YES. THAT IS A GOOD MUSICAL INTRODUCTION.

If you get the chance, watch it. (Although it bugs me that Hugh Jackman's wife walks around in town with her hair loose. And the elephants are toootally fake.)


I saw this yesterday evening and it was so good! It's a family movie (unlike 'The Light between the Oceans' haha) and it really pleasantly surprised me. I didn't expect it to be so good, but it really was. It made me laugh and cry and left me wanting for more. (Also, it's all about people who are slightly nerdy and want to make things and I love that. This movie has a girls obsessed with books, a clock making boy with big dreams, a film maker, an actress, etc. Can't you sense how good this movie is? Smell it.)

Also it's set in the 1930's and it's in Paris so the scenes are all so pretty. (ALTHOUGH. That blue policeman dude with the ghastly moustache should leave. Him and his dog. NOW. Ugh. I do not like the man. The flower lady must know better.) (The way he talked was hilarious though.)

Asa Butterfield's acting is superb. I mean wow. That boy has talent. When his gorgeous blue eyes well up in tears, you just feel it. And then he lives in a clock. I mean, I kinda want to live in a clock.

Would I watch this again? I would.
Should you watch this? You should.

And with that I end this post. Go hence and spend thine hours watching these three movies. (Although maybe not the first. :-P)

wait what, I'm 19?

{things I learnt when I was 18}

I learnt that it's worth being tired if it means you get life-long memories
I learnt that it's not worth being tired if not
I learnt how to properly pluck my eyebrows so they look good
I learnt that the Bible is one big unified storyline about Jesus
I learnt how to sing a solo without feeling nervous
I learnt how to pray aloud for a group of people
I learnt that polaroid pictures are worth the money
I learnt that it's impossible for me to make close friends if we don't have Jesus as our mutual friend
I learnt that I can spend a month without Pinterest
I learnt that it is possible for me to read twenty-nine books in a year. Only. Twenty. Nine. (*cries*)
I learnt that God is too loving for us to even come close to understanding
I learnt that instagram was fun till it became an idol.
I learnt that deleting the instagram app isn't that big of a deal + I can survive perfectly well without it.
I learnt that writing down prayers brings me closer to God
I learnt that there a lot of stupid people in the world
I learnt that God loves all those stupid people
I learnt that my homeschooling life was not stressful next to my college life
I learnt that it's always a good time with good friends, no matter what you're doing
I learnt that my mum is the best encourager for me in my studies
I learnt that I LOVE to encourage people
I learnt that I have become one of those bloggers that rarely posts because of a busy schedule
I learnt a lot of things because this has been a truly blessed year.

Now I'm nineteen and I can't believe being eighteen is over already. There were ups and downs and laughs and tears and in the end, there was always God's love, there whether or not I always trusted or took complete hold of it. In the end, I have a solid rock to lean upon. My age is going up faster than I want sometimes - the people and the life around me are always slowly changing. But there is always a foundation in my life. I'm God's daughter and that will never change. I pray that we can all share that foundation.

Oh, Happy National Hugging Day :-)
*virtual hug*

Christmas, New Year, and Exams

Before I write this blog post, I should acknowledge the fact that I should not, in fact, be writing this blog post. I should be studying my socks off for my dreaded exam on Monday.

Just For Your Interest.

Christmas Eve was nice. We had my mum's side of the family over and we ordered 20-something thick, zizzly-with-fat pizza's. I love that we did pizza for Christmas Eve. Sometimes you don't need the whole spiced-potatoe-and-rich-homemade-gravy-deal. Sometimes you just gotta go for a fancy version of junk food. And it was awesome. I had four huge (like, almost American-kinda-huge) slices of pepperoni pizza. After the third slice, I told my aunt (and friend) (meaning my aunt is not only my aunt, she also my friend) (not meaning I asked my aunt and my friend, aka two people) (sidetrackkk), I told her, "My head says I shouldn't have another but my heart says I should." She told me to follow my heart. So I did.

Christmas Day was short and sweet. It was sisters and brothers and mum and dad. It was singing songs and Queen Elizabeth's speech and going to Church and opening presents. It was feeling thankful. But it ended with me returning to my room, where there were (and are, albeit slightly messier than then) 11 neat piles of paper with STUFF.

My dear readers, Belgium has a thing. It has a thing for placing exams in January, after the Christmas break. And it has a thing for making 'em (the exams) nice and difficult. Especially difficult. (Especially not nice.) In other words, I did not have a Christmas break. But that's okay. You're only a college-kid once. (#yoacko) (#?)

So every day these past two weeks, my day has gone as follows:

6:30 am - my phone buzzez. I grab it and read whatsapp messages and scroll through instagram (which I've now decided to delete because I scrolled through it too much) (and it's 2018, so I'm bettering my life! Of course!) and check inboxs' and BBC news and I do my Bible devotion on the app.
6:45 - I get out of bed and wrap my white fluffy blanket around me and go downstairs. Make tea. Have breakfast. Take tea up to my bedroom. While the house is dark and my family is enjoying their holiday hours of sleep. (Actually, I quite enjoyed doing that. There is a sense of great pride in myself at my accomplishment in waking up early to study. I felt pretty legit.)
7:00-12:00 - Work (sometimes good days, sometimes disappointing days) (but all in all, I was at my desk with books and papers)
12:00 - Time to get out of my cave and eat
12:30 - The hermit returns to her cave to freak out and study. Now and then the hermit gets interrupted by her loving mother who gives her nice things like mints and chocolate and - yesterday - a cute brand-new sweater. (LITERALLY COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT MY MUM.) (+chocolate)
17:00 - Dinner. Sometimes I had it on a plateau in my bedroom so I could study some more. Sometimes I went down to interact with humans.
19:00-21:00 - work. Sometimes I worked on till 10 pm. Not because I was enjoying myself, but because there were eleven piles to get through.
22:15 - sleep cuz I need it too (+ set alarm for tomorrow at 6:30)

So there you go. Now it's 21:25. Today I finally feel ready for the exams. They start on Monday and will go on till the 19th. I am ready for the 20th of January.

On New Years' Eve/New Year I did take some time off to welcome myself and my dear friends into the New Year. We had the best time. I love my friends so much, sometimes I just can't believe I'm lucky enough to be part of such an amazing, loving, God-honouring group of friends. When we went outside to listen (and try to see...) the fireworks me and Julia were just like, 'gah, thank you Jesus. Thank you for 2017. Thank you for 2018.'

I am so excited for this year, even though I know there's a very busy semester ahead, and even though I know it will be stressful for me at college because of all the work. But God is good and there is so much room inside of me for growth in His direction. I'm excited about growing deeper in faith and finding more and more possibilities for me to serve Him.

Here is a random picture of some of our feet. (Picture credit: Erik)

(guess what socks are mine)

I guess I don't need to explain further why I haven't been blogging much. Or emailing. Or writing. Or reading books For Pleasure. But you know, it's okay. It really is. Yes, I don't like exams, but do I have a loving family and loving friends and warm clothes and tea and chocolate and food and a room? Yes. I don't have time to reread Gone with the Wind or to watch Titanic with my family, but do I have an amazing Saviour who loves me and fills me with joy? Yes.

So all is well.

And I shall leave you now to go to bed. Happy New Year, loyal readers.

I shall leave you with my favourite song I discovered in 2017. (IT'S LITERALLY SO BEAUTIFUL + makes me sob.) (LISTEN TO IT.) (thx)

Never forget that you are worth more than words can express! x